We Grew Up

A child holding hands with her parents.

We Grew up, and we realized medicine isn’t a fruit juice

We Grew up, and we realized who leaves us from loved ones and family, will never come back as mom said,

We Grew up to find our problems can no longer be solved by a piece of candy or a dress, or a handbag,

We Grew up to realize our parents can’t hold our hands always to cross the road or go through life

We Grew up to learn behind mom’s smile a thousand tear, and behind dad’s strength and love a thousand worry and thousand illness

We learned mom and dad strictness was love, and their anger was love, and their punishment was love

We Grew up and realized we didnt grow alone, but our parents grew with us too and they are close to leaving us, or already left us

Sorry Pythagoras, My Parents are the hardest Equation.

Sorry Newton, My Parents are the secret of gravity

Sorry Edison, My Parents are the first light in my life

Sorry Plato, My Parents are my favorite spot in my heart

Sorry Rome, all roads lead to loving my Parents

Sorry my beloved ones, no matter how much i loved you, it wont and will never be as much as i love my parents, they will never be repeated in this life.

Thank you Dad, because I am your Daughter and you are my Father ❤

Thank you Mom, because you are my Mother ❤ and I am your Daughter

{Say not to them [so much as], “uff,” and do not repel them but speak to them a noble word} Surah Al-Isra [23]


M : Monsters

Lying on bed, waiting on elves to carry me to dream land,
Instead, tiny monsters are dragging me out of bed
Tossing me into the cold ground of somewhere,
Somewhere familiar, a hotel room with dim lights,
Phone between my shaky hands, screen flashing “Lovely Mom”
I don’t want to answer ! yet my hands pick up the call


Mom : ….. whats the embassy phone number
Me: Nooo (tears streaming down my cheeks) where is dad !
Mom: I need embassy number, Ca..
Knowing the answer yet hanging by a glimpse of hope i cry: where is dad? i want my dad!!
(Mom silently sobbing) : he .. passed out


Everything shattered around me as i let out a scream
Hearing mom’s faint voice through phone: hush my baby.. be strong for your younger siblings ..
Monsters tiny hands crawl over my throat chocking me to sleep..

K : Kind Eyes


10 P.M. Sitting in the balcony,  watching her movements

Her hands working on matches, lighting up candles

A tiny smile forming on her lips, softening her features,

Her eyes twinkling to the light of candles

Silent moments lost in our thoughts

Mother, are you thinking of Dad ?

“I wonder” she said.

J : Just Be You


I don’t know if anything matters anymore, she said, but i do know i care about my kids.

It wasn’t good enough, I knew that. Honestly I did, in my mind it was crystal clear.

My heart however, was having a serious case of selective hearing.

All it heard was, I care about my kids. And within that-was a glimmer of hope, a spark of optimism.


Please don’t change who you are,

Our lives should continue as if dad was here with us
Doing everything according to his wishes.
Please don’t change that

Please Just be You, Mom.