Forgotten Heart

I’ve yet to discover the sound that heart makes b2d6322d63822ae0ee0c239a74faa70ewhen it breaks
Does it yell out loud when it’s angry?
Does it weep when it’s sad?
And when it’s lost, does it call for help?
Would anybody be able to hear it?
How do you find a forgotten heart?
Tucked away in some abandoned place
And giving it another chance of feeling again
Sometimes an old heart just needs a new body
And a lifeless body just needs a new heart
Sometimes you just need a little bit of help from someone
For a heart to do what it is meant to do again~ Yuna

M : Monsters

Lying on bed, waiting on elves to carry me to dream land,
Instead, tiny monsters are dragging me out of bed
Tossing me into the cold ground of somewhere,
Somewhere familiar, a hotel room with dim lights,
Phone between my shaky hands, screen flashing “Lovely Mom”
I don’t want to answer ! yet my hands pick up the call

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Mom : ….. whats the embassy phone number
Me: Nooo (tears streaming down my cheeks) where is dad !
Mom: I need embassy number, Ca..
Knowing the answer yet hanging by a glimpse of hope i cry: where is dad? i want my dad!!
(Mom silently sobbing) : he .. passed out

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Everything shattered around me as i let out a scream
Hearing mom’s faint voice through phone: hush my baby.. be strong for your younger siblings ..
Monsters tiny hands crawl over my throat chocking me to sleep..

J : Just Be You

 

I don’t know if anything matters anymore, she said, but i do know i care about my kids.

It wasn’t good enough, I knew that. Honestly I did, in my mind it was crystal clear.

My heart however, was having a serious case of selective hearing.

All it heard was, I care about my kids. And within that-was a glimmer of hope, a spark of optimism.


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Please don’t change who you are,

Our lives should continue as if dad was here with us
Doing everything according to his wishes.
Please don’t change that

Please Just be You, Mom.

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Page 6 : Drop of Rain

Wavering in and between

Like angry waves breaking on shore

Angry for its hesitant between land and sea

Praying it would vibrate into air

Handing its destiny to clouds to be carried away

To further places away from home

Away from everything it once knew

To be rained down on a child’s smiling face

Filled with innocent and hope

And peace

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